Testimony of Laura Beth Breaker

MY TESTIMONY OF SALVATION

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A few years ago, I read a tract entitled "The Other Jesus," by Ovid Need Jr. It explained how one is not saved by simply praying "Jesus, please come into my heart and save me." I never heard this until that day. I said that prayer when I was five years old. And as "assurance," I prayed it again at age thirteen and a few other times before I read this tract.

The tract explained further that salvation is only by trusting in the finished work and shed blood of Jesus Christ. Despite the truth, I justified my experience of praying when I was five by saying to myself that I believed Jesus died to save me and that God knew what was in my heart. I thought to myself that even if I didn't fully understand the Gospel when I was five, surely I did before I asked God to save me again when I was thirteen.

But nonetheless after I read this tract, I prayed in my heart, "Lord God, if I'm not saved, I'm trusting only in the finished work on Calvary right now," (just to cover all my bases). I did this again about a half a dozen times over the next couple of years.

I didn't realize then, that my prayers of "assurance" showed I had doubts.  My "ifs" proved I still held onto believing I was saved when I was five, (when I wasn't).

Then one day I read a tract called, "The Bloodless Gospel." It showed how the ecumenical, apostate crowd preaches that someone is saved by "turning their life over to God," or "making a decision for Christ." But this is not the plan of salvation, even if one heard that Christ died for their sins. I questioned within myself, "Was what I did similar to this teaching?"

The next day another such tract came across my hands. Written in the 1800's it was called, "No Forgiveness Without Blood," by T. T. Martin. I quote the tract:

"When one faces the question of his sins and realizes that he deserves just punishment, one of the first impulses is to pray and beg God to be let off, to be forgiven, Alas! Much of the religious instruction to the sinners is to the same effect.  Many feel that God forgives the sinner because he BEGS to be forgiven instead of because he ACCEPTS and RELIES upon the atoning death of Christ as his Substitute."

When I read this, the truth finally sunk in. This was exactly what I did when I was five years old. I may have heard had the right Gospel, (i.e. Jesus Christ died to save me) but in my heart I thought that if I believed what He did for me and if I only asked God to save me, he would, knowing the sincerity of my desire that I wanted to be saved. I had the right gospel, but the wrong plan of salvation. Asking and trusting are conflicting ideas. Really it was faith plus works although I didn't recognize it for that at the time.

But, I managed to shrug all that off too as since then I have said within my heart that even IF I was not saved then, I am trusting in his blood now and that's what counts.

The very next day I heard a story of a ten-year-old boy who went to vacation Bible school and prayed and asked Jesus to come into his heart and save him. He was so excited that he went and told his grandfather about it. But after some discussion and studying of the Bible this ten-year-old boy realized he was not saved at all by asking God to save him no matter how sincere he was. And so it was right then that he put his faith in nothing less than Jesus' blood and righteousness.

The day after this, I was reading a church newsletter with an article about this very same subject. A preacher (who had asked Jesus into his heart when he was five) went to the mission field. After doing some studying on the subject of salvation he realized he wasn't saved at all and finally put his faith solely in the shed blood of Jesus to save him.

I couldn't sleep that night. I stayed up for hours thinking on these things and how I've tried to justify what I had believed as salvation.

I then realized there was no way I could have been saved when I was five, or when I was 13 or any other time when I prayed and asked God to save me! Why then, when I learned the truth of what salvation was, was I still praying, "IF I'm not saved..." My "ifs" proved to me that I still held onto the idea that I was saved when I was five, when I wasn't.

It wasn't until this night (June 13th, 2006) that I repented of all my prayers and all my sincerity as salvation. It wasn't until this night that I realized I was lost! Finally there was nothing left for me to rest in for salvation but the FINISHED work of Jesus on the cross - that is, His shed blood. That's when I took God at his word, and received Him by faith. And I didn't even have to manifest that faith with a prayer.

All those other times that I had said a prayer within myself, I never told anyone about it. I thought it was just as well that people kept believing what I already told them about when I supposedly got saved. But this night I couldn't keep it to myself. I had to tell my husband about it. And now I have to tell my friends and family about it too.

Many are deceived like I was. It is as if Jesus is saying, "Look, I've done the work already needed to save you. There's the blood on the altar. All you have to do is trust in that work. Do you?"

And one responds, "Jesus, I believe you died on the cross to save me, now will you save me?" Or, "I'm trusting that you will save me if I want to be saved - God I want to be saved!" Or, "God save me!" Or, "Lord God, you gave your life for me, now I give my life to you. Please save me today!" Or, "Jesus will you come into my heart and save me?" Or, "God please forgive my sins and save me." These are all false plans of salvation.

And Jesus is left still saying, "I've DONE the work needed to save you! I've already shed my blood for you. Will you just trust in that cleansing blood?" Yet still someone asks, "Jesus, will you save me?"

Just knowing what the Gospel is, isn't salvation. Sincerely admitting to God your damnation without Him and your desire to be saved isn't either. Only faith in the finished work of Jesus on the cross, that is, His shed, cleansing blood, brings salvation.

Now tell me if you can find the plan of salvation in these "simple" steps:

        1. Admit you are a sinner.

        2. Be willing to turn from sin (repent).

        3. Believe that Jesus Christ died for you.

        4. Through prayer, invite Jesus into your Life to become your personal Saviour.

Just knowing that Jesus died for you is not the plan of salvation. You can believe in your mind, not in your heart. Inviting Jesus into your life is not, according to the Bible, the plan God set forth for salvation either. (Christ does dwell in the heart of a believer by FAITH according to Ephesians 3:17, but not by ASKING or INVITING). God has set forth Jesus to be our salvation through faith in His blood. Rom. 3:25 states, "Whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation through faith in his blood..." Jesus only becomes your personal Saviour when you accept His finished work by faith. Not when you ask him to be our Saviour, and not when you beg him to do so.

Do these simple steps remind you of something that a charismatic preacher might say to get the people to "make a decision?" These 4 simple steps come straight from the last page of nearly every Chick Track. I know of so many people who have followed these steps and confess they are saved, but have doubts so often that they pray step number 4 in their hearts once a year or more for "assurance," or "just to cover all their bases."  (Like I did!)

When you ask them their testimony they will say they were saved when they prayed, or saved by their prayer. Yet another may say when he believed and prayed.  But Believing and praying is not the plan of salvation. That is faith and works!  A person is only saved by complete FAITH, without works (Eph. 2:8,9).

After having my eyes opened to that fact, I went through my husband's big box of tracts to see what each one had to say about how to get saved.  About 99.5% of them said something to this affect:

"If you've never received Jesus Christ as your Saviour, bow your head this minute and ask Jesus to save you."

I couldn't believe it. Could so many "Christians" really be so deceived?

I used to think that almost everyone who was saved had doubts occasionally. But now I can see that a lot of people, who think they are saved by this method, AREN'T.  No wonder they have doubts!

I know there may be some people who read this and will say that I was saved the whole time. They will think I'm probably mixed up in some cult religion that tries to talk people out of their salvation. They may be angry at me for writing at all and encouraging suspicion in the minds of others about their own salvation.

But it is for those people who have had doubts that I am writing this. The Bible says for us to examine our hearts. 2 Cor. 13:5 says, "Examine yourselves, whether ye be in the faith; prove your own selves..."

I know that I know that I know I'm saved by grace through faith in the blood of Jesus.  How about you?  Do you know for sure?  If not, why not trust the shed blood of Jesus Christ alone for salvation?

 

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